Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Innalillahiwainnahilaihirrojiun... Al-fatihah utk arwah mak..
Mak!.. Sungguh xkan ada gantinya smpi bila2 pun, xkan lupa smpai bila2 pun.. Sudah 6months++ but i miss her so much..
Sungguh xpuas take care of her, xpuas masak utk dia (walaupun xpandai sgt msk pun). I miss all my last moment with her..!
But still alhamdulillah, syukran sbb made wise decision going back to penang on last skull holiday, eventhough time tu baru 2mgu berpantang.. Gamble!..
Ingat sgt waktu tu, btol2 nak jumpa her.. N alhamdulillah, waktu tu mak stuju nk ikut blik kl.. So it gave me the best opportunity to berbakti di ujg2 hayatnya kan..
N alhamdulillah again, ive done my best to make her happy..anything that she tringin nk mkn dpt disediakan.. N alhamdulillah, she dapat tgk n played with raihanna n amni, my dotter n niece..
Alhamdulillah, at least they dpt tgk their opah(xtau la besar nnt ingat lg ke x)..
Just what make me ralat sgt, im not by her side on her last breath:(.. Raihanna cried!..
So i have to stay home, just hubby alone went to the hospital, n it is already 12midnite when she nazak!..
Having baby cammot going out at that time!.. Huh!.. Ye ker?..Poor me kan.. Rugi!..sgt2 rugi..!sgt2 rsa berdosa!!..am i not a good dotter?.. Adoiiiii!!.. Mmg rsa terkilan sgt!..
Moga arwah mak ampunkan dosa yan ya.. :-/ siyes wehh.. Sedey!.. Sapa xsdey bila kehilangan ibu kannn..
Kalau diikutkan mmg redha n berdoa biar Allah jemput mak sbb ksian tgk her sakit. Tapi bila da btol2 jadi.. Ya Allah, xada daya nak menahan kesedihan itu. Sedeh!!.. Sgt2 sedeh. Mcm xpcya pun ada. Aku dah xada mak?!..
Ya Allah, berat dugaan Mu, msih blom puas hidup dgn arwah mak.. Masih blom puas berbakti. Rsa rugi hari2 yg lepas x di manfaatkan sebaek mungkin. Rsa blom ckup balas jasa2 arwah.
Blom puas. Semuanya, blom puas!!.. Xkan ada lagi kesempatan itu!.. But i believe,n i wish, may Allah give me another opportunity to be with her in Jannah! Aamiin..